Ya Rabb, I miss you….

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيم

Bismillahir-Rahman-Nir-Rahim
(In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful)

كُنتُمْ خَيْرَ أُمَّةٍ أُخْرِجَتْ لِلنَّاسِ تَأْمُرُونَ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ وَتَنْهَوْنَ عَنِ الْمُنْكَرِ وَتُؤْمِنُونَ بِاللَّهِ

You are the best of peoples ever raised up for mankind; you enjoin Al-Ma`ruf (all that Islam has ordained) and forbid Al-Munkar (all that Islam has forbidden), and you believe in Allah [3:110]

 

This is real time conversational email between me and a very dear friend of mine whom I only knew through emails (spoken just once over phone discussing about an Islamic course).

I could not help but post it as it was an immense revival of my spirit, a boost to my Imaan at the time needed most and a motivational message that each one of us can benefit from.

This was my email to her:

Asalam a laikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatahu,

Dear Sister —–,

Currently I am in India for an extended stay(came in May) for some family obligations and In sha Allah some Dawah.

As I write this, my heart is filled with sorrow, eyes filled with tears and discomfort in my entire body. It has been four months and I feel suffocated already here, in spite of being amidst family and friends.

Alham du lillah for Ramadan, it kept me moving forward, but now I feel I’m missing my Rabb, I’m missing my masjids, I’m missing my friends, I don’t know why I’m writing this to you….but please bear  with me…..

Hard as I am trying I can’t organize my schedule, the kids are unmanageable here, It’s all about shadis and khaana pakaana here.

It’s about your dresses and zewar and dawat’s here.

It is sad that family members are far astray. You tell them anything and there begins another story.

People are so busy here, astaghfirullah they don’t have time for Salah, however they make time for movies.

There is FITNA all around sister, Deen keeps diminishing here, hard as much as I’m holding it, Shaitaan is behind me like crazy.

People’s hearts have hardened, Duniya has become the prime factor in lives here, every day I feel the Ayats of the Quran are speaking by itself…

Ya Rabbi I miss you….

My friend’s reply (the reply was immediate too, which doubled the effect on me as it was the same state of hopless feeling, unlike how it would have been had I received it a day or probably a few hours later)

WalaikumSalam wrwb my dear sister —–,

I feel blessed that you’d share with this me. Thank you. Everything that occurs in the Universe or happens is surely as Allahswt’s willed it. Subhan Allah. There’s a reason that Allah swt knows why you would write to me. Subhan Allah

I had goose bumps as I read this. It reminded me exactly of how I felt when I visited my parents/relatives in India last time. I couldn’t have worded my feelings and frustrations better than you did. Masha Allah

Its like everyone out there is SO busy all the time, yet at the end of the day nobody has really achieved anything really important, and worst nobody even realizes it. HEEDLESSNESS! They think “it’s all good.”

And they are all really good people too in general. But misplaced priorities, which is a result of just “LA ILMI” mostly.

Deen is just a side dish or a condiment out there. It’s not the main course. That’s how it was passed on to them and they haven’t tasted anything better.

Mafoom of a Hadith says, that people who make duniya there priority Allahswt scatters all their affairs and they tire themselves out running after those affairs. And as for those whose priority is Deen, Allahswt streamlines (arranges) their affairs and duniya falls at their feet and they only take from it whatever they need. (Not want, because duniya is anyway not their priority.)

This is exactly what we see over there. It’s just that they are unaware of their “purpose in life” and hence do not live meaningful lives.

There’s where I feel even more grateful to Allahswt. Had HE not brought me here, I would have been living my life exactly like them. They are me, just five years back. Allahswt changed me, and He can change everyone of them.

May He swt guide us and through us guide others. Ameen

It’s such an honor and a privilege that Allahswt chose us to understand His book and His deen. And honor always comes with responsibilities. There’s a reason why Allahswt has put you there, this day, this time, in this situation.

Make duaa to Allahswt to make you understand what He wants from you and to guide you to do as much as you can to please Him. And know that all He expects from you in any situation is just what you are capable of. He just expects from us that we convey the truth to whoever we can. Even one or two is too many insha Allah. Convincing is not our forte. Even if you sometimes find it hard to even convey, you always have Duaa. our most powerful weapon. Alhamdullilah.

Don’t let Shaitaan make you feel low. Don’t let the results frustrate you. Allahswt  only takes your efforts into account. True, the environment affects our level of emaan, our worship. But even a little in such an environment if worth so much more in a more suitable one.

A hadith says, “The person who sticks tightly to my Sunnah, at the time when the rest of my Ummah will be in a state of discord & disunity – will be like one who is holding on with his bare hands to ember.”

Too much of dunya does make our hearts feel heavy. But make Dhikr all the time, anywhere. Insha Allah you’ll start feeling your hotline to Him lighted up brilliantly again.

There’s a reason why all the Prophets of Allahswt worked as shepherds. Its how Allahst prepared them for what was to follow for them. The Messenger of Allaah(S) said: “The believer who mixes with people and bears their annoyance with patience will have a greater reward than the one who does not mix with people and does not put up with their annoyance.”

Even for your children, you might not see it now, but its such a learning experience. Out there, they might seem a tad bit out of order, but they have been given this opportunity to learn other life skills , people skills, etc. which one only gets to learn in societies like those in a natural way. Once they are back in their original place, you’ll see they’ll start being as they were before this, only a little more experienced insha Allah.

May Allahswt protect you and your family from all kinds of harms and fitnah. Ameen

May Allahswt allow you to always feel the sweetness of Imaan. Ameen

May this situation only make you connection with your Rabb even stronger. Ameen

With lots of duaas.

Take care

WasSalam wrwb

I couldn’t have expressed this any better and more so I can’t capture the moments and feelings that two friends unknown to each other (united only for the love of Allah) leave such a great impact on not just one but many a lives.

My Dear brothers and sisters in Islam and humanity, it does not matter whether we know each other or not, it does not matter whether we belong to the same class, creed color or not…what really matters at the end of the day to bring us to a common platform is our belief in the existence of one GOD and that the Prophet Mohammed peace be upon him, is the messenger of God.

I sign off reminding myself:
Regarding the obligation of da‘wah in this age, Sh. Ibn Baaz also said:“At a time when there is a shortage of callers, when evil is prevalent andignorance dominates, da‘wah becomes fard ‘ayn on everyone according to their ability.”

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1 Response to Ya Rabb, I miss you….

  1. Anonymous says:

    Assalam Alaykum dear sister,
    I love how you didn’t sit brooding over you weak moment, but instead turned that moment into something In sha Allah beneficial for yourself and a source of inspiration for others.
    Keep it up. Ma sha Allah
    Jazaki Allahu Khayran

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